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Up and down, up and down.

I'm feeling pretty good, for the most part, although there are moments of dipping in my mood, generally when I don't know quite what to do next. I'm currently debating about getting my own apartment. The outflow in money would be significant, but at the same time, I think it would be worth it, if I can afford it. I'd be closer to campus, I'd have my own place in case I wanted to bring people home for a party or games, or whatever. And I could finally offer friends from out of town crashspace, even if it were only a floor.

But it is a lot of money. So, I go back and forth, up and down about it. Bleh.

I should go get lunch, then head to advisement. That, at least, I'm feeling reasonably good about. :D

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Bleh.

I'm beginning the great Job Beg, otherwise known as looking for an assistantship for the upcoming semester. I /hate/ this. I hate looking for jobs...it feels so much like begging, and it just makes my skin crawl. Plus, I inevitably get turned down, or I say something stupid, or I don't fill out the right form, and then I feel stupid, and it just bums me out for days. Hate hate hate.

( Life rambling. )