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[pyrephox]

You ever had that feeling? The one where you're at a party, and you don't really know anyone there, and everyone seems to be having fun and fitting in around you, but you don't quite know what's going on? When you feel like there must have been some sort of introductory course for the world that you slept through, and now you're just trying to figure out what the heck is going on?

Lately, I feel like that a lot. Like somewhere, somehow, I got left behind in the socialization biz, and can't quite think of the right things to say or do. Everything that comes to mind sounds stupid or insincere, even when it's heartfelt, and I can't help but think I'm on the outside of...something. Something that most other people seem to have figured out, but constantly eludes me.

Maybe it's just the freaky weather.

Comments

[undauntra.livejournal.com]

Don't sweat it. Life can perfectly comfortable hanging around on the outskirts of other people's social groups, and it's a lot less burdensome when one doesn't have the responsibility of being the social glue that holds a crowd together.

But then, I'm a flaming introvert.

[pyrephox.livejournal.com]

I don't particularly wish to be anyone's glue, dear. :) I'm not talking about /belonging/, exactly, as just the feeling that even basic social interactions are slipping out of my reach. I guess I just want to do something like get together with a group of RL friends, hang out, play games, maybe watch a movie. Things where I know what's going on, and it's not like I'm trying to feel my way through conversational minefields, or that I'm just allowed to hang around on sufferance or out of pity.

[archangelbeth]

*hugs*

I get most of my conversational stuff from online, these days...

Go to a SF convention? First time I went to one, it was like coming home. Love 'em.

(My other trick is going to playgroups and having a kid -- one can always talk kid stuff with other moms, pretty much. I, er, don't suggest having a kid just for that. O:> But also, it tends to be a pretty superficial conversation, so... one adjusts one's expectations, I guess. Dunno.)

*hugs*

[pyrephox.livejournal.com]

*grins* Thanks for reminding me! I'm now trying to track down the local con I go to every year...the site seems to be down, however. I might need to call some people who're closer to the local groups than I am. See what's up.

*hugs*

[brianh]

*hugs* I feel precisely the same. :( My sympathies.