![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
1. I miss 80's fashion. I don't like earth tones, and I still think that rainbow-striped stockings are cool. On other people, not me. Despite my love of bright colors and flouncy fashions, I wear almost exclusively blue jeans and t-shirts. Anything else, and thanks to my build and body language, I look a lot like an incompetent drag queen.
2. I had to teach myself emotional expressions. My normal expression and tone of voice are extremely neutral, and unless I'm thinking about changing it, it stays that way regardless of what I'm feeling. This is a large part of why I tended to be labelled 'stuck up' in school; even when I was being friendly, it came off as cold.
3. I will play any game once. I don't think I've ever turned down learning a new game, regardless of the subject matter or complexity. I've been so /bad/ at some games that I wouldn't play again, but I'll always at least give it a try.
4. I have two original, professionally formatted and completed fantasy short stories on my hard drive which I have never submitted anywhere, or shown to more than one or two people.
5. I am a coward. It took me until I was eighteen before I would ride on a roller coaster that goes upside down, I cringe whenever someone drives faster than 70 mph, and I can't play baseball because I keep wanting to duck the balls rather than hit or catch them.
6. I have to be prepared to find something funny to 'get' a joke. People who try and tease me or spring jokes on me before I'm aware of it usually get a blank stare, an explanation, or an apology because I think they're serious. The flip side to this is that I find things amusing which no one else in the world does.
7. I want to visit Tokyo someday, but not live there. I want to live in Oregon someday, but don't have much interest in visiting.
8. I am a hopeless romantic. It is undoubtably a good thing that no one has ever felt inclined to treat me in a romantic manner, because I would probably fall like a ton of bricks for the first one who did.
9. As far as computer and console games go...I can happily sit and /watch/ someone play a game for hours, without feeling any need to play it myself. It has been known to freak some friends out, who think I'm bored but just too polite to say so. I'm not bored. I'm fascinated.
10. I'm lousy at small talk. I prefer silence to trying to figure out an interesting but shallow topic on which to circle around with other people. I think this is one of the reasons I'm a gamer...you always have something useful to talk about.
11. I am a feedback whore. I crave feedback, positive or negative, on any project which I start. I'm happier and more productive, the more opportunities I have to talk to someone about something. The flip side to this, of course, is the nagging feeling that I'm getting on everyone's nerves. Thus, unless other people initiate the discussions or ask me questions, I start to feel guilty and stop talking about it at all.
12. When I was ten, I had an evacuation and survival plan in the event of nuclear war. Not one that was given to me by adults, but just one I thought up for myself, after reading one too many novels that dealt with the subject.
13. I also had a 'My Side of the Mountain' plan, and spent a lot of time reading up on survivalist topics. I abandoned it when I realized that I'd have to leave my books.
14. I like well-written Mary Sues (or Marty Stus), and I'm a sucker for the 'ordinary person ends up in land of magic and discovers they have fantastic powers and/or are Someone Important' cliche. I also dislike the concept of the 'canon Mary Sue' with the big hatey-hate.
15. .sdrawkcab etirw ot ekil I
16. I prefer character-driven stories and games. I will forgive a lot in a plot, if the characters are engaging and interesting. Likewise, if I can't bring myself to care about the characters, it is very rare that I will enjoy a story or game.
17. In real life, I stutter and stammer. It's only because my mind jumps ahead to whatever I plan to say next, without leaving instructions for my mouth to finish what it's supposed to say /now/. The more excited I get, the more likely I am to simply drop words out of my sentences or try to make them up by gesturing enthusiastically.
18. I can and have watched multiple 'Faces of Death' videos, while eating pepperoni pizza. I have also teared up watching a music video ('Runaway Train', if you want to know). Make of it what you will.
19. I like most people. I think humanity, by and large, is awfully neat. Despite having the requisite knowledge of atrocities and personal experience with blatant stupidity, I completely fail at being a cynical misanthrope.
20. When I was younger, I wanted to found a cult. I, of course, thought that I could do it /right/, and no one would have to drink any sort of poison.
21. I am easily entertained. I can amuse myself for hours with a screwdriver and a sheet of plastic.
22. I have never been in love. While I would like to say that this is because of my vast powers of emotional self-control, it's most likely simply because no one I was interested in ever returned my interest, and thus I simply forgot about it.
23. I tend to ignore little problems until they become big, nasty problems.
24. I'm very territorial. I don't feel comfortable in other people's territories, and prefer to have friends over to my territory, or failing that, to meet in neutral, public places. I constantly fear screwing up when I'm at someone else's house.
25. The easiest way to get me in full panic mode is to get me lost in a car, in the city. I hate driving in cities, and I hate being lost. When the two circumstances combine, I turn into a raving, spazzing lunatic.
26. Being around couples makes me nervous. This has become an increasingly large problem as I've gotten older and more of my friends have become hitched or attached. I always feel as if I'm intruding, and want to leave the room whenever the cuddling and cooing starts.
27. This is a difficult meme to write, since I don't like revealing all that much of myself, especially to people who don't really give a damn.
28. The first horror movie I saw was 'Creepshow'. I was about 3, and it was at a drive-in theatre. My father had taken me...why, I don't know, since he doesn't /like/ horror movies. But I've been a fan ever since.
29. I do not believe in the existence of supernatural phenomenon, but I really, really /want/ to. Unfortunately, I've yet to see a case where any supposed manifestation has held up to scientific analysis.
30. I have a really, truly, incredibly lousy memory. Especially for dates. I have forgotten how old I am supposed to be at times, and had to actually do the math to figure it out.
31. I love soft things. I can roll around in silk, or velvet, or fur, for a very long time and feel absolutely happy. Possibly the easiest way to delight me is to give me something nice to feel, even if it's just a polished river stone.
32. I have never been drunk. I have considered correcting this, but wouldn't want to do it alone, and wouldn't want to inflict whatever horrors are involved in my intoxicated personality on my friends.
33. I have read every Walter Farley book ever written, and at one time, had all of them except 'The Black Stallion and the Girl'. All things considered, I think the Flame books are my favorites.
34. I have a special attraction to amnesia as a plot device. I like trying to picture how people would act or react without their memories of previous experiences to be their guide.
35. I function best with deadlines. If left to my own devices, I tend to keep putting things off; with deadlines, I /still/ put things off, but can still get in under the wire.
36. It has always been my opinion that I made it into 'the smart people' club largely on a technicality, and the erroneous assumption that anyone who likes to read must be 'intellectually gifted'.
37. I love subcultures. Not belonging to them, but watching them. I love to watch the movements of people in groups...especially groups who have the pressure of being marginalized by a greater culture. The thing that strikes me most about them is how similar they all are in the ways they react and deal with it. Once you take away the trapping of the reason for the group's formation, the way a BDSM group works is remarkably like the same way a gamer group, neo-conservative Christian group, or political group works.
38. I started my computer obsession with BBSes, in the mid nineties. Before then, I'd never even touched a computer, except occassionally for school. And for a very long time, connecting to BBSes was the only thing my secondhand DOS computer was good for. I liked Tradewars, the best.
39. I don't like multiplayer computer games. If I want to be social, then I go play a real game with real people...the idea of logging onto NWN or Diablo and getting into multiplayer games thrills me not at all. Thus, the increasing push towards multiplayer-primary-or-only games makes me sad.
40. I like to cook, but only when no one else is around. I'm sensitive about my lack of skill (in this, as in many other things) and thus get jumpy when other people try and 'help'. However, I also get grouchy if I cook something, and no one else will eat it even when it turns out well. C'est la vie.
41. People who complain about prices annoy me. Note, this does not apply to people who live frugally, or people who don't have money to spend on whatever they happen to want at the moment. This applies to people who will go on for long minutes talking about how prices keep going up, it's highway robbery, they aren't going to pay this...and then buy the damned thing anyway. And then complain about how much it cost on the way home. To me, that wrings all the joy out of buying anything. If I decide something is too much to afford, I just don't buy it. If I do buy it, I don't complain about how much it was, because I'm not getting that money back and I might as well enjoy what I spent it on.
42. I really love studying to be a counselor, and I hope every day that I will be a good one.
43. When meeting someone in Real Life, all my conversational avenues tend to come out in a rush. Then, after a couple of hours, I can't think of anything to say for a long time. It happens online, too, it's just a little less noticible.
44. When at marine biology summer camp, I got labelled 'Ms. Congeniality', because I kept saying hello to people whenever they came into a room, even if they'd just left. This was not on purpose; I just kept forgetting who had just left or arrived.
45. I have skinned and stuffed a mouse. I mounted him on foam and called him Drop Dead Fred. It freaked people out.
46. I play a truly mean game of Spades or Hearts. Or I did. I haven't played in years, and may have lost all my edge, by now. But I learned how to play Spades by the age of four, because my mother and her friends needed a fourth. Most of my happiest childhood memories revolve around playing cards with my mother.
47. I suck at backgammon. Of course, I've only played a couple of times. But I'd like to play it more.
48. Sometimes I don't think I'm anyone real at all. Just a collection of vaguely programmed responses to stimuli, and everything else is just emptiness. If I were replaced by a rudimentary AI, I don't really think anyone would notice the difference.
49. I was born at noon. Well, technically, 11:58 am, but it's close enough for government work.
50. I have several notebooks of really /horrid/ adolescent angst poetry which, despite all rational thought, I can't bear to throw away.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
From:
no subject
- Hee. Thanks. :)
- Oooooh, you nearly witching-hour babe, you!
From:
no subject
From:
no subject
From:
no subject