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[pyrephox]

Thanks to the date, and the presentation that I have to make in class tonight, I am frustrated and grumpy, and without much patience for anything. Many women on campus are walking around with flowers today...they have this thing where you can buy a carnation, and have it sent to someone in class or wherever on campus. Lots of flowers. They're very pretty. Most of my friends are in relationships, and thus /really/ don't want to hear me whine about being twenty-six and just a little lonely, so mostly I try not to.

But it's harder this year. This year is pretty much the first time I've actually really /wanted/ to be with someone. Not necessarily something serious, but...just a little chance to cuddle, to spend time with someone, to desire someone who desires me just as much.

Edit: And you know, I don't even mean romantically, necessarily. I can go for...a week, or more, without any more than the most casual touch from another person, like accidently bumping into them in the hall or something. I can go a couple of days at a time without talking to anyone. It gets...wearing, after a time.

I can still appreciate the happiness and sweetness of the day, and I do like seeing people happy together.

I just wish I could be one of them, for once in my life.

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[sariel-di.livejournal.com]

[grins]

Yes! Exactly. It'd be one thing if there was an actual reason to interact with the people (classes are love, good club-based hobbies are love, etc), but random strangers? Errrrrrr. Random strangers in situations that you already don't like or aren't interested in? Errrrrr. Etc.

[nods] [scritchies lots] Very frustrating, yes. And the Internet helps a little with at least the social need, yay for good friends online -- but not at all with the touch one, and it's not the same as talking to or seeing people in person. >_>